Monthly Archives: October 2007

First Doctor's Appointment

I had my first doctor’s appointment yesterday.  All went great.  It was just the normal blood work and pap.  I love my doctor.  She was able to answer many questions I’ve had built up over the past few months.  She actually talked to me and listened to me.  This is so very important.

My first ultrasound is scheduled for December 3rd.  I will be going every 3 weeks for doctor’s appointments from here on out.

I now have to start finding a pediatrician and day care!  I can’t  believe you have to start finding a day care this early.


9 Weeks Down 31 To Go

When I first found out I was pregnant, I turned to the trusty interweb for a little guidance.  One of the sites I visited was the American Pregnancy Association.  There I signed up for a week by week newsletter to include little tid bits of information about your developing baby, your changing body, and tips.  I love opening these emails and seeing what my body is going through.  It is always 100% on the dot.  A few weeks ago it said I might be developing acne.  You think?  My face looks like I’m a boy going through puberty.  There is no concealer on the market that can cover those blemishes.

This week was the greatest, it was talking about mood swings.  Ding ding ding!  I’m like a fucking emotional roller coaster.  Poor Mitchell, he deserves an award for putting up with my ass the past few weeks.  Right now I’m pretty much just switching between two moods: sad and mad.  Anything can set me off either way.  In the past week I’ve cussed out the poor Target customer service girl, about kicked some woman’s ass in Kroger for cutting me off with her buggy, cried watching the movie Knocked Up, and cried watching a Suddenlink Cable commercial.    So, yeah, I’m having some mood swings.

Pregnancy is not pretty

Do not let anyone lie to you about how great it is being pregnant.  That glow and grin on a pregnant woman’s face is probably just gas.  Don’t get me wrong, having a baby is a miracle.  You have a life inside of you.  It’s a wonderful feeling…. when you aren’t praying to the porcelain god.

First, the morning sickness.  Why it is called morning sickness I’ll never know.  You are sick all freaking day long.   I ate so many saltines I become so bloated my clothes already aren’t fitting.  The puking isn’t the worst part by any means, it’s that queezey, dizzy feeling.

I’m so tired I’m in bed by 8pm.  I might be so tired because I can’t sleep at night.  I’m constantly waking up with sore boobs, having to go pee, having a hot flash and/or gas.  It’s great.  I’m surprised Mitchell hasn’t moved out of our bed yet.

My boobs hurt so bad that I had to go buy a sports bra 2 sizes too small to sleep in.  Saying I was top heavy before is an understatement.  I don’t know how I’m going to find a bra to fit if these puppies keep swelling!

Then there is the hot flashes.  I always froze at night, now I wake up sweating.  Several nights I’ve went to bed in jammies and woke up in only the sexy sports bra.

The best part by far is the crying spells.  I’ve never been a crier.  It takes something like Bambi to make this girl cry… until now.  Here are a few things that have set me off the past 2 weeks:

  • The pregnancy book section in Barnes and Nobel.  I sat there bawling until Mitchell finally made me get up and leave.  Why was I crying you ask?  I was overwhelmed.  There was so much there I should know, I know none of it!
  • We were in Walmart the other day, I had to pee again.  The back bathroom was closed because they were cleaning it.  I cried all the way to the front bathroom.  I’m talking big crocodile tears.
  • Baby booties made me cry.  They were so small.  How am I not supposed to break something that small!

My body and hormones is going through all of this for the first time.  I pretty much thought I was crazy, losing my mind, a wuss.   Then I found the most perfect book in the whole entire world, Belly Laughs by Jenny McCarthy.  She is able to make fun of the rough stuff you go through being pregnant.  I now can laugh at myself instead of cry 🙂

I did get a few tips for Morning Sickness from my nutritionist.  Hopefully things will get better soon!

Knocked Up

So it seems that little piece of advice your local pharmacists gives all you ladies about antibiotics interfering with birth control is true. You’d think since I worked in pharmacy for 12 years I would have known this, but sometimes I just get stupid and forget things. Yes, I am pregnant, knocked up, with child, going to be a mommy. Bet you aren’t as shocked as we were!

We found out a little over a week ago. Peeing on a stick is very hard when your hand is shaking. My first test turned positive before I could even place it on the counter. That wasn’t good enough for me though, we went BACK to the store to get another test. This time I missed the stick all together and got about 2 to 3 drops on it, still positive. I honestly didn’t need the tests anyways, my body knew something was different.

Mitchell and I defiantly were not planning for a baby. He is finishing his last year of his undergraduate degree in Physics, I just started a new job 4 months ago. Bad timing. I started to feel better about things as people told us, there is never the perfect time to have a child. You are never prepared, there is never enough money.

The last week has been an emotional roller coaster. We broke the news to our families, which luckily they were all excited. See, my sister got knocked up a couple years ago out of wedlock. She is now happily married to her “baby’s daddy” and has the most beautiful girl in the whole wide world.  They just bought a new house btw!  My family had already been through that shock. I’m glad they weren’t in too much shock, because I still was!

I cried for a week straight. I wasn’t crying because I was pregnant, because I don’t want a child, I didn’t know why the hell I was crying half the time. I’ve read this is normal the first trimester. Mitchell tried cheering me up once by stating: “Just think, you have a piece of me inside you”. I replied I was pretty sure that is what got us into this mess to begin with.

I’m just now getting over the shocked phase. I’m starting to get excited. I know it is still early. I know anything could happen. I don’t need to be told this again. I worry about it every day.

My first doctor’s appointment is October 29th. I already have a list of questions a mile long. Using an internet due date calculator, it seems I will be due the end of May and I am currently 6 weeks along. Funny, Mitchell graduates May 10th. I’ve been told I better not go into labor during his finals! I told him I’d keep my legs crossed, but after he got his diploma, it was fair game!

We are making several lifestyle changes. First and foremost, I’ve almost completely quit smoking. I had cut back taking the chantix, but never completely stopped smoking. I’ve read not to completely quit smoking, but to ween yourself off. Stopping cold turkey can throw your body, and the baby’s, into shock. I’m down to 4 or 5 a day and not even smoking a whole one when I do smoke. I’ve also cut the caffeine down. Instead of gallons of diet mt dew a day, I’m drinking decaf tea, juice, water and milk. We have also cut down on spending. Instead of going out to eat, we cook at home. The savings is a pack of diapers!

So now I have someone else to put first. There is no room to be selfish now. It’s all about the baby. Luckily I also have Mitchell who has been taking wonderful care of me! He has been helping around the house, cooking dinner, and more than anything, just telling me everything is going to be ok.

I’m pretty much the luckiest girl in the whole wide world right now!